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Acrophobia: Fear of Heights

I never had a fear of heights when I was younger. I didn't really understand mortality either. My brother, Dad, and I used to tromp through the backwoods of Okl...

Things to Do When You Feel Terrible

Do you feel terrible this week? Read on! My eyes currently look like the dead sea. I've consumed enough iced coffee and puffy cheetos to fill at least 1/16th th...

A Letter to the Shadow

Hello again. While I was on the beach in San Diego with my dogs, enjoying the surf and the sunset, you were in the dark woods, near the mouth of the hush place....

How to be Great

How do you become great? I know one thing for sure: You don't become great by doing nothing. By doing the same things over and over again, in a kind of blunted,...

How Could I Possibly Love Me?

I hit a vein expecting there to be smoke, instead what came up was gold. And unsure of what I saw, I tried to convince my mind’s eye that it wasn’t anything spe...

How Shadow People Taught Me About Creativity

The phrase “Do one thing every day that scares you,” lifted from Eleanor Roosevelt to populate the fancy boarders of Pinterest memes and personal quotes to live...

You're Right, I Can't Possibly Understand: On Depression

The most controversial thing I say is probably that depression is your responsibility to fix. But, what would I know? It's not like I've been standing where you...

Feelings of Impermanence

Every positive change in my life has required a loss. This shouldn’t be too much of a surprise, we live in a universe where all exchanges require reciprocal phy...

The Demon or The Shadow

At the time, it seemed like the righteous thing to do. Every bad thing I did, I did in the name of good. I felt justified in cocking my hand back. The rush of a...

The Meaning of Life

I remember searching for a gas cap at night on the dark ground in the freezing Oklahoman winter and I remember laying in the dark in a shitty room I'd rented ou...

The Miracle of a Working Society

People always talk about how things are constantly going wrong in their lives. I'm talking about those unknown unknowns that can't be accounted for or anticipat...

Disassociation - What is it?

I spent the majority of my life in a disassociative fog. The best example of disassociation I ever found was in Jean Paul Sartre's "Nausea", in which he describ...

The Inescapable Body

When I was very young, I remember standing outside during a tornado warning, and the wind was strong enough that I felt like I was going to blow away. The sky w...

Isolation and Existence

Are you patient, are you kind? I would like to be. Many times, I have just been frightened instead. Someone pauses to take a breath. "Hurry up and speak!" I wan...

Getting my Ass Kicked in Sparring Class

When I began to fix my life back in 2016, I decided to divide it into two phases. I won't get into the details here, but the first phase was relearning how to n...

Become More Creative and Productive: Listen To Your Body

I have this romanticized image of what it means to be a productive writer. I’m in a locked room, alone, with the moonlight filtering through a giant window and ...

What Chaos Teaches Us

I spent most of my early 20s in bars and strange houses. I slept on dirty floors in cold rooms and in strange beds surrounded with red mirrors. I’ve stumbled in...

Return to Steemit?

Hello everyone, it's been a while since we've spoken. I'd like to say I was out fishing for strange, bone-like sea serpents on an infinite lake of mist, but rea...

Book Giveaway!

I have been on Steemit for about 4 months and I am enjoying it very much! I just got curated by the big fish for the first time last week and in a few hours I e...

Discipline: From Pain to Joy

Everyone knows that discipline is required to achieve great success, and also that we all probably need more of it. It’s the secret ingredient that is usually c...