It wasn't just me, I guess thousands of people will support my opinion. It wasn't just about the decision, I wasn't seeing the benefits of it.
Six long years rolled off from my palm just like the wind. I was confused and still wondering what life has in-store for me. I could remember earlier this year when I wrote my goals and I happened to include starting up a business.
I had no plans of that but I was kind of confident I was going to start up a business. Aside from all my goals this gave me concern. I could remember sitting myself down and asking myself what kind of business do I truly want.
So many came to my mind but then I require some experience before venturing into any. My course of study stuck with me. I can actually start up a clinic and yeah it requires me learning some few things too.
That was the beginning of the journey, when I started my decision was shaking. I had 99.8% reasons to stop and just held onto 0.2%. I didn't just know what kept me going, the stress was too much and other gigs I was handling were suffering but one thing was my interest.
Some days my legs wanted to give up on me due to a series of standing ups, other days I came home totally exhausted and some I lost my appetite and couldn't eat sometimes. I lost 4kg and my clothes were becoming so big on me which was evidence of stress.
I could remember asking myself to quit. I know it was going to hurt but then what happened to the time spent over the weeks and months. Will I be willing to throw it all away for nothing? The first question I asked my instincts.
Time and days passed, I could remember the first surgical extraction I witnessed. I was so emotional seeing blood and all that. I hate to see blood right from when I was a child including seeing people in pain but then being a dentist has taught me another version of me that never existed which has been tough. Now I don't just see blood I perform surgical extraction smoothly with no issues. It took a lot for me to be tough, reshaping my mindset, my thoughts and making peace with myself with what I actually want.
It took so much boldness and additionally my supervisor too. Now the difficult part is how to manage patients. I have worked in the private sector before and it was so tough handling customers but after that experience it became easy handling people just the way they want to be handled. Handling patients here makes it easier but I just have to be patient at some point.
Life has been a rollercoaster and the things I hate to do have become the things I do now. The society appreciates skills and handwork and I happened to study that in school including the few I learnt on my own. Another stage of life which is having a private dental clinic will be a goal I will celebrate. Let's see what life is yet to unfold.
Proudly a dentist 🦷
