As the world keeps spinning and the days keep rolling by, anxiety has seemed to be the weapon fashioned against our mental health. Every day of our lives, we hang on a thread of different worrying thoughts. Sometimes we carry these worries so silently that one might even assume everything is okay, but deep down, our heads are full, yet life keeps moving. There have been times where I’ve sat in deep thought about everything life throws at us and asked myself, "Is this really all we came here to do? An endless cycle of things we're supposed to be anxious about?"
Admittedly, everyone is having their own fair share of anxiety, sometimes the share isn’t even that fair. We're burdened daily by things affecting us as individuals, or by worrying about those close to us, or even just by watching the world fall apart. Looking at world affairs, especially the state of the country I find myself in, I can’t help but let my thoughts wander. There were days when little was just enough to cater to daily needs. People could survive on the bare minimum. But now? Even the most basic things have become luxuries. The hike in prices alone is a cause for serious worry. Everyone is working ten times harder just to survive, yet survival seems to drift farther away the harder we chase it.
You try to save up some money , at least to have a little confidence in the future , and then another unexpected expense shows up to drain it all. I try to work hard as best as I can, and plan as much as I can, yet it often feels like an endless cycle of unpaid bills and a tired mind. Sometimes I find myself questioning if I’m even doing enough, or if I’m making the right choices in life.
And then there’s the future ,very cloudy, unpredictable, and often overwhelming when I think about it. It’s a heavy thing on my mind when I think about how uncertain tomorrow is. Where are we actually heading? Are we working towards a better life or just going in circles? Society moves fast, trends change, technology advances, and sometimes I wonder what impact the choices I make today will have on my futture. Am I in the right path or should I start doing things differently?
Looking at the ones I love around me, especially my parents, adds a different layer to my anxiety. Watching them every day , these once strong people who raised me , grow older with health complaints I can’t fix, makes me feel so helpless. Hearing that they didn’t sleep well, or seeing them more tired than usual, saddens me in ways I can't explain. Sometimes I wish I just say some magic words ro make their pains go away. But I can't stop them from aging or protect them from the aches that come with it. And that thought weighs heavily on my heart.
Facing anxiety with a strong heart is something learned, and I’ve learned to take each day one step at a time. I don’t know what tomorrow may bring, yes. But I’m not about to beat myself up searching for all the answers. These overwhelming feelings will only deepen if I keep focusing on things I can’t control, like old age and life’s uncertainties. Instead, I try to set my goals, no matter how unclear the future feels, and put all my heart into working hard. Maybe I’ll have enough to take care of myself, and hopefully enough to care for those around me. Tomorrow will always have its own troubles. Today, I’ll just do what I can.
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