Holy crap, welp my day's plans got sucked away into oblivion. I had plans originally but, YouTube totally owned me big time today for the most part. I was annoyed that I didn't commit to my plans but hey I suppose I can make a blog about this elite time wasting LOL.
I was once again completely entrenched into YouTube debate junk. It's a guilty pleasure, what can I say? Some call this content brain rot but I mean, I don't really think brain rot is exactly a new phenomenon considering back in the day I would watch friggin Dr. Phil, Maury Povich etc.
People talk about propaganda, or like agenda pushing or whatever online from various creators/channels but I mean TV shows, major news outlets and even traditional Hollywood always and likely still are, used to push certain ideas or whatnot. I mean attempted 'programming' has almost always happened. Propaganda is literally everywhere you look and trying to decipher it all is just madness so, I'm just rolling with it and enjoying some of this content. For all I know these debaters are all just like, acting. Meh. At least I'm aware of this likelihood a bit.
Yeah, this debate stuff gets me pumped UP sometimes I swear. Not sure what it is. I grew up having a lot of arguments in my house so I mean, I guess these types of shows just click with me. I cannot decide if it's a good or bad thing if I'm being honest. I know debates aren't arguments exactly but yeah. Whatever the case, these shows do distract me and get me out of my head for awhile. Sometimes I get in a bad mood but once that happens I know it's time to shut it down.
Yeah, I have been watching debates about everything. Veganism, dinosaurs (yes dinosaurs LOL), feminism, and politics in general. You'll never catch me being a vegan and most feminism ideas are truly painfully... let's say strange. I'll be honest, being raised by a single mom, and surrounded by tons of women growing up in general, the feminism topics really blow my mind in a big big way. I've had a healthy handful of rants on these topics before on my blog. All I can say is, it wasn't always easy being raised by basically all females. My mind was truly in a blender for like, ever. I know many people like to just be oh so amazed by a single mom raising children and she certainly did her best and as I get older my respect for her only does grow. Still, it wasn't exactly sunshine and rainbows. Not many kids are asked how it was being raised by a single mom, many assume that it was hugs and kisses and just warmth. Call me what ya want, you had to be there. I'm not saying like, there was never some awesome moments but yeah, there were a lot of dark days as well. I genuinely get how wimpy I must sound but things were pretty rough at times. I think what is frustrating is I was totally by myself and so like, it's not like I have any witnesses. I think it's why I have an issue with my family to this day. They all like to admit my mom was a bit... intense. But they always just assume I had the 'baby treatment'. Meanwhile they didn't speak a word to me (not all their fault I was the youngest I guess) for roughly 5-6 years straight. I don't think any of them ever had to deal with her solo like that for so long. I don't want to claim I had it the worst, I don't want to compete with who had it the worst but their absolute smugness AND total disregard that life was rough does hurt a bit. I admit, I am probably partially being a baby. Nevertheless let's break this down here. She had mega family issues growing up. My big brother died as a baby. One divorce, one husband who died (my dad). She consistently fought my two other siblings. They dip. I'm left alone for years. Logically speaking, they really believe that my mom magically just changed with me? I do gotta man up and get over all this because I am getting too old. But oh well. I am just rambling. Doesn't matter. I like to write. I like to vent. It is what is. I'll never fully get over it but, I am just trying to move on the best I can I guess. I hate living in the past but ugh.
I swear, some of these feminists on these debate shows must be actors and/or mega trolls because I cannot believe the crap that they say. Maybe I am just a money farm to these creators but it is what is. I've wasted time in a lot worse ways in my life than being caught up in click bait.
All I can say is, life in 2025 feels crazy strange. Maybe I'm hyper aware of things that don't matter, but I don't know, I like to be informed even if it's a lot of junk food for the brain. Complete ignorance is just as bad as hyper awareness I believe so I guess I've picked my poison.
As a man entering his prime of his adulthood, I find it quite annoying when older generations like to belittle current day problems and whatnot. Yeah, no major wars. Yeah many modern day inventions have made life much easier. Life is good on the surface but, every generation will have some problems I guess. I wonder if there will ever really be a sort of 'utopia' or whatever. As I write this I do start to wonder if politics really is slightly pointless because, I struggle to envision a world where everyone lives in just pure peace or pure bliss.
Even in this day and age, it seems that humans are hard wired to like, find problems maybe? Maybe we are ungrateful? Perhaps it's just me.
Still, while I suppose in some western countries birth rates are falling, in 2025 there are still more people on this planet than there ever has been. Also, as far as I know we are in the most advanced era ever as far as raw physical technology is concerned. Sure, practically every new generation experiences newer and greater technology than the prior one but, I don't know man it really feels like 2025 vibes are truly next level I mean the stuff we are doing on a daily basis is what thousands of years of humans would have considered straight up sorcery and the pace this stuff is moving is pretty wild. I mean, I use ChatGPT and it's pretty freaking close to talking to like, a living being. I've heard that it's possibly getting to a point where AI is going to slow down in terms of advancement, but I guess we will see. If it were to steadily improve, it will be nuts to see what ChatGPT will look like in 20 years.
So yeah, 2025 is mega populated and mega technology is everywhere. Not only that, information is being shot out every second from every direction everywhere you look.
If I can just get to a point where I can go and live in a small-medium sized town with my son and perhaps one day grow my family and just chill that's all I want. Find a friendly super regular church to attend, be a decent member of the community. Blog, maybe write a book. Maybe. Maybe I'll get a really nice camera and be a photographer like I always wanted. Collect some books. Collect cards. I will always stay busy that's for sure. I hope to maybe gather enough Hive to be able to support creators on Hive too of course. Just grow old and croak peacefully.
I am not perfect, I know many people on this globe probably don't like me. I've made roughly a billion mistakes. But I'm doing my best and I do want to contribute to the world. Stay creative. Keep it moving. Micro, baby steps but keep it moving.
I've been in a major funk, and I think I'm actually getting a bit sick, but it's hard to say.
Going to watch a few more nutty debate content and call it a day. I have a lot to do later so, I should give myself a break.
I miss my son massively and I really hope one day I can provide a better life for him. He deserves it soooooooooooo much. One thousand percent deserves it and nobody can convince me otherwise. I would do anything for him. Truly anything.
Yeah. Ramble over, until next time, Hive on folks.
