Now that I am 50 plus, it's obvious that I have seen quite a few of my family members pass away. Quite a few of them have been on the other side of the realm and in peace. But what I observed with them that most of them died in loneliness. And this is what scares me. I do not fear death, but I do get scared of loneliness. When I look back at their end times, I see that they had everyone but yet in death they were lonely. I am not sure if the soul chooses to pass away in that manner, which I have read that it does many a times.
For my dad, I was there most of the times, but then I was also newly married in those years and I had my son who was very small, also the job and home responsibilities did not allow me to be there fully present for him. I would visit him almost every evening, he was not in good health condition. I would feel very guilty also to be not available for him all the time. When he passed away I was not around, he was hospitalized and I was there all the time with him in those days, but then there was one day when I decided to come home to freshen up and spend some time with my son, and in that little time I was away, he move on. Till date I feel miserable that he left all alone without anyone being by his side, and somewhere I also felt his soul made that choice.
When my mother-in-law and granny passed away, something similar happened, there was no one around them and they gave up in silence and loneliness. Every time I felt too much pain about it. I had wanted to be there for all of these people in their end moment, but the circumstances by itself evolved in such a manner that no one was around in their last days. Personally, I feel that when I die, I would want all my dear ones to be around me and I would want to see their faces and give my last breath away. I do not wish to go away in loneliness. Maximum times I have seen, it has happened that way that the soul chooses to go away in silence, when no one is around. It is possible that they may not want to see their loved ones in pain. But if I have lived a full life, I would want my family members to send me away with a smile and not in pain.
I know it's a very intense topic and not many want to talk about it, but to think of it death is inevitable, to some it comes easy and in comfort and to some it comes with lot of pain. Be it whatever way it comes when you have your loved ones around you in those end moments I am sure one can pass off easily into their other life.
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