Breaking Free

The last two weeks have been pure chaos in my life trying to get things together for a very important Faculty event. I was over myself with all the preparations I needed to put in place for me to be a part of this event, and I was particular about this because I’m beginning to build a presence career wise, and I was informed that for me to do that, I need to attend more events.

Now, this was going to be a crazy thing to accomplish for someone who basically lives not to be disturbed. No, I don’t like having to pick out what to wear (which is why I’m grateful that my Faculty only allows one outfit), and I also never look forward to events where I’ll be surrounded by people and have to perform the usual show of niceties. It gets draining quite fast, especially if I’m not with people I feel at home with.

Nevertheless, I was advised to put all of that behind me if I want to have a successful Law career, and also align myself with my other career prospects. So, after getting away with staying back from far too many Faculty events for far too long, I had to be present at this one, and I seized the opportunity to put myself out there.

The event was a huge success. I had very few loved ones around me, but the ones I had went above and beyond ensuring that I looked my best and I stayed happy. It’s amazing seeing just how willingly people sacrifice when they care about someone, and in my case, I was in tears at the end of the day at just how beautiful it all turned out to be. I was exhausted. But I was also fulfilled.

You’ll be wondering how all of this relates to my song choice for today, and it doesn’t, as you can rightfully tell, but I found myself listening to it this evening while rain fell in torrents outside. It got extremely dark, and my slowed thoughts began to ponder on the song.

So, I heard on TikTok that “My All” by Mariah Carey talked about forbidden love. That she sang about a married man who she’d been with but couldn’t have. All of that may just be speculation anyway, but it’s weird because most people who listened to this song back then didn’t really listen to the lyrics, and I marvelled pleasantly at how raw and open artistes were about their feelings back then. There was no cancel culture and all that needless trolling, so artistic freedom was encouraged.

Anyway, the concept of forbidden love has always been a mystery to me, and I have related to that once or twice, howbeit short-lived. There's a thrill that comes with wanting someone you can't have. Someone perhaps unreachable, or an ethical crime to be affiliated with. But it gets messy fast, so it's best not to dwell too deep or too long on it.

Anyway, that’s about it. Living. Loving. Learning. That’s all I hope to be about from now on.