Hello Everyone!
Being inconsistent semi-consistently, Yang the rooster falls ill again, Inbound chilly weather & My plants are actually growing!
Alright, I am going to have to get myself back on track with the writing again... no matter what it takes... because it seems as if I always feel a little better when I do it consistently or at least somewhat consistently. The painful part, (which is something that has been a persistent part of the 'sharing experience' for nearly nine years now) is that at the end of the month... if I have made one dollar a day I am doing 'good' at it.
Trying to fill the rest of the void (where I need funds to cover extremely basic necessities) almost always results in having to ask folks for help... or just reminding them that I still exist, I am still doing the same old sideshow... and yup I am probably not gonna 'make ends meet' without some assistance! Having to 'rely' on that sort of 'contribution mechanism' is just about as enjoyable (and as completely unreliable) to be doing (and 'relying' upon) as it sounds like.
Lately, I have been in such a bind that I had to get super desperate and dump a bunch of HIVE (at an awful price) because otherwise... I was about to lose service to my email because my once a year payment has been 'bouncing' for two months now. Having to choose between cashing in the bulk of my savings (at a pathetic value) or to maintain access to something like that... is assuredly as ridiculous as it sounds... but it simply had to be done.
The tiny amount of funds that I had left over (after all the fees from shuffling funds around) got me five small items from a store today... and all I could think was: "Wow! So much effort... so little return!" Then I drank some of the drinking water (the first I had had in a while), made some coffee (after being out for I guess the better part of a week) and then ate the ultra-generic, overpriced, tiny container of ice cream that I got... because my morale needed something to send it in a different direction than where it had/has been going.
Ever since that little silkie rooster (Yin) died, it has been pretty rough on me... and it is not so much about the little fella dying... but that I was already feeling rather low (and struggling so hard to feel better) that it took the proverbial 'wind' right out of my equally proverbial sails. The other little rooster getting sick right afterwards, sure did not help me mentally... and just now today I found him in the same condition again where he cannot move.
Thus far, I have done all the same things that I did for him last time but he definitely is not 'shaking it off' like he did before... and I think that the only thing keeping him alive... is that I keep holding up some water to his beak and occasionally dabbing a drop or two on it if her does not drink any. Considering that when I found him in the coop just after sunrise, that he was on his side (almost upside down) and had jammed himself into a very narrow crack... I am surprised he survived the night let alone all day today.
Anyways, I have been working a bunch on technology projects lately... after having gotten into the habit of doing it when my foot was all buggered up... and I had finally gotten my internet connection working slightly better. This time around I really 'put in the hours with it all' (meaning the projects) and fugue-like state or not... I stayed super focused and did not get overly lost on one side project or another along the way.
Over the previous few days, I have had to drag myself away from working on those projects repeatedly... and remind myself to get outdoors, walk around some and above all else... try to get caught up on weeks' worth of chores that were too difficult to do when I was having trouble walking. Final note (I hope so at least) on the whole foot injury, it finally quit pestering me for a while... and then just yesterday when I put my boot on... it 'barked' a twinge of pain deep inside my foot... so I guess that something in there is still healing.
On a different note, my gardening efforts are doing surprisingly alright this year... and I even have a tomato plant that is looking like it might actually put on some height and bush out. The squash (or what might be pumpkins) are still doing well also... but I think that for them to really put on some growth I will need to move them into a sunnier area over the next few days.
Coming up here soon, the weather is about to flip from what has been summer-esque conditions... to getting close to freezing at night (for one whole night) so I am going to have to keep an eye on what the windchill is supposed to be... in case I need to protect the plants from it. Given that on several evenings (and especially in the early morning hours) it has been rather chilly... a cold snap this late in the year is not all that shocking... but whoa it is late for such chilly conditions.
Well, I think that I am going to wrap this entry up and try to get it edited and posted before the hour grows too much later. As a side note, I have been considering writing more posts like that one that I did the other day (found here) about a project that I have been working on because doing that really seems to help 'snap' things (especially the projects and my description of them) into focus... so we will see how that works out.
Okay, I hope that everyone is doing well and all that feel good jazz. Ciao for now.
