The constant feeling of not being enough reinforced by the voice in my head.
I’m someone who talks a lot but at the same time doesn’t have conversations of substance with people due to the fact that I have issues with vocally expressing myself. I use photography and writing to help clear some of the thoughts that I constantly have to deal with.
Below this picture we’re gonna find one of my main toxic traits that causes people to leave. I acknowledge and I’m constantly having to fight that battle with myself. Always torn trying to find a balance.
I lost my voice at a very young age.
I never developed certain skills that would help me be “healthy” and I keep paying the price for that. Every new person I “meet” and eventually lose due to the fact that I can’t “talk” fast enough it helps the voice in my head grow louder.
“You’re not like the rest “
“You’re less “
“You’re barely human “
“You lack“
“Do you even feel?“
“Do you even love?”
I keep feeling like an abandoned building.
The need to demolish it keeps growing.
I don’t know how long I can keep fighting it.