Phew!
It's been a long year. It's barely half of the year, and it feels to me like I've gone through a year and a half. I've mentioned before that I had a rough start to the year. I mean, the first few weeks went well, just as I wished, and somehow, I hoped the test of my plans would follow suit. But yeah, they did(some), but that became like the start of my troubles. I had too many troubling, restless moments. I spent so much time worrying, thinking, calculating, and recalculating(and hey, this is not about money , nor anything else financially related). I kept worrying and thinking about the choices I made that brought me to that point. I was so confused and too worried. And it robbed me of peace. Who could have thought that something like that, something I planned for and wo4ked towards, would give me that much anxiety. I hardly discuss my troubles. But the two persons I spoke to encouraged me, saying they were glad I made they move that I did. While that wasn't enough to soothe, it helped. I shrugged and just lived. I had done something good for me that came with more workload, and I was going to see it as part of growing and the baggage that came with taking a new path.
And I am immens3ly grateful for that.
UnsplashThis day, I sit back, and as I reminisce upon those few months and the years before. The years before when I could only think of getting to this point in my life, the years before when I was too scared to share what I truly wanted and to go for it, the years before when although I knew what was going to be best for me, I was too terrified to speak or just let everyone else but me decide what's best, as I think of those and more, all that stands differently is how much I have grown. So, I am thankful for my doggedness and for my little-big wins.
Then, I'm grateful for family. I'm grateful to have this solid, always-availavle support system. Ever since I was born, and in these past few months, I've been reminded of the quality humans in my life. The very people who when th3 chips are down remain unmoved but stay true to what they represent ...home.
And finally, I am grateful for moments and for people(who though mostly indirectly), remind me to never lose sight of my goals but pursue so I never use the phrase, "I should have," "I would have," "I wish I had". I'm grateful for how easy I take my goals and strive not to back down whether or not I see results right then. I'm grateful for all and for every.
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