Despertar no solamente es salir del sueño, a nivel de conciencia implica un viaje interno que no siempre tiene un transitar fácil ni lineal, es que romper con patrones, paradigmas sociales y creencias no es solamente como hacer un click y borrar de nuestra memoria, esto requiere de un trabajo constante que muchas ocasiones trae consigo frustración, cansancio y hasta desesperación porque solemos querer que todo se nos de rápido y sin tanto esfuerzo, he aquí el verdadero desafío y que una vez que lo superamos es verdaderamente gratificante darnos el tiempo que necesitamos, ser pacientes y compasivos con nosotros mismos es la clave.
To wake up is not only to get out of sleep, at a consciousness level it implies an internal journey that is not always easy or linear, breaking patterns, social paradigms and beliefs is not just like clicking and erasing from our memory, this requires constant work that often brings frustration, fatigue and even despair because we tend to want everything to happen quickly and without much effort, this is the real challenge and once we overcome it is truly rewarding to give us the time we need, being patient and compassionate with ourselves is the key.
I am currently going through a process of awakening my work skills, as many of you know the economic situation in Venezuela is not the best, I will speak specifically of my area not to delve into that topic, I am in the education sector and unfortunately it is not well paid, however despite this situation I still love what I do after 14 uninterrupted years of playing in this beautiful work, even more in the area of special education. The truth is I have no words to describe how tasty it is to wake up wanting to be in a place where pure love, innocence and charisma abound, but these things only fill my soul and not my pockets, so I had to look for more options that allow me to have more income and this is where I questioned what other skills do I have?
At the beginning everything became an uncertainty: what should I do? should I change my job? would it be good to study another career at my age? what else do I like to do that will generate income for me? My head was a constant whirlwind of uncertainty and I could not get out of that state, which did not allow me to see the situation clearly. One day I found myself crying inconsolably and I unburdened myself with my friends, whom I thank a lot for their support and let me know how great and capable I am in their eyes, this gave me a different approach and at that moment what seemed a catastrophic scenario became a beautiful new opportunity.
The truth is that just as I have the ability to teach, I also have the ability to learn so I could do any job with the same desire to perform the one I already know, leaving the comfort zone is so necessary, there you realize how much you can flourish in other spaces, so it was, I let go of control, trust the process and without much fatigue in what I realized I had an offer for a remote job, which is great because so I do not neglect my son and from home I can generate. I realized that technology is a tool that I had not taken full advantage that this gives us, so I have dedicated myself to continue to inquire about it, if I have any questions I ask someone close who knows the subject and day by day I have been improving.
Sometimes we forget to celebrate our achievements, no matter how small they may seem, taking steps to reinvent ourselves, getting ahead in an economically and emotionally difficult situation, exploring beyond what we know and having the courage to dare is nothing more than an act of love for ourselves. It is extremely important to recognize our abilities and strengthen them. Today I feel that I woke up from a nightmare that I had created mentally and I am living from gratitude a new stage to which I welcome gladly, I hope to have the ability to start over as many times as necessary understanding that learning is continuous and that I am sufficiently skilled to develop in any area I want. I trust me, I'm doing well ❤️
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