I am the third of six siblings, three females and three males, I grew up in a home with many values, fears and taboos, I was always advanced in thought and action. When I was nine years old, I cooked for all my brothers, my mother and my grandmother delegated to us domestic tasks that were typical of adults. I cooked, my older sister ironed the clothes of all my brothers. The youngest did not do anything, she was the spoiled one, that's how she grew up doing nothing, the men were just that, the men of the house they could not do work that were typical of women. Since I was little I began to see many injustices around me especially in my house, I remember clearly when I was around six years old, my younger brother no more than four years old, I started playing with him, I took my hair, it all started as a game, suddenly his grip was stronger and stronger, I screamed to let go and nothing to do it. I walk around the house like walking a dog, I asked for help and I just saw my mom laugh and say "look at the child as she plays with her sister" that episode of my childhood I always remember it Another unpleasant memory for me is that my sister and I had two beautiful dolls were two babies, in our free time we played with them then we kept them in an immense showcase, we sat there watched over glasses and crystal glasses, one afternoon my sister and I felt a lot of laughter and shouting of my brothers who played in the room We went out to see what happened and we saw how my brothers beat the babies in the face, took turns, one held her and the others beat her, until we broke her heads Our first loss, those beautiful I felt very angry and sad, in the Christmas of that year I asked the baby Jesus to bring me another baby, but it was not like that, on the Christmas tree I was a skinny and ugly doll with white hair, immediately I took her to the bathroom, undressed her, bathed her and painted her hair yellow, so I won a good scolding. I hated that ugly and skeletal doll it was the last doll I had. I still remember the beautiful babies.
I was already growing and I lost interest in them, I changed the dolls for books, I loved reading all kinds of books, suspense science poetry, fascinating stories where I always thought that I was the protagonist, in my house always bought the local newspaper , there appeared good and bad national and international news. The time was passing and I was forming as a woman, my flat chest was not the same as the breasts were forming, and my butt was bigger and hips hip wider. I was ashamed of that transformation for which I was not prepared. I went to school with a white coat that was the uniform, I had to do sports in shorts, I did not want to but I had to. One morning I went to school very early at 9 a.m. we had sports, I told the teacher that I felt bad, he answered calmly he will do it in the next class. Back home my mom asks me how was the class, I answered there was no class, at school something terrible happened with a girl.
My mom was alarmed and asked me to tell her, I said mom you remember my friend Margarita, she told me clear daughter your good mate mama Margarita violo the sports teacher and found her naked and with many wounds on her body in the backyard of the school. My mother almost died of fright, she screamed and said, it can not be, I cried, swearing that everything she said was true, my mother made a coat over me, I take my hand and, in a hurry, we arrived at school, she found a mom from a classmate and she asks him, you know what happened here, that the sports teacher raped and beat a girl, she answered; No, my daughter has not told me anything, I was sweating and my heart wanted to get out of my chest.
When we were arriving at the school address Margarita came, all smiling with an ice cream in her hand, my mom immediately asked what happened to her, she answered very smiling, nothing, lady I'm fine and kept savoring her ice cream. At last we arrived at the school's address, there was the director, doing his job quietly. My mom asked very nervous, what happened here? He told him what I had told him, he was left with his mouth open, he could not believe what he was hearing. My mom insisted that I tell her the truth, he answered the only truth that is here lady, is the big lie that her daughter said. My mom was shaking, I took my arm and I was almost dragged around the school, we got home very fast, I pushed to get in, I hit my face, I fell to the floor bleeding from my nose, I put on my chest I turned to the side, reached for an object that was on the ground and hit my mouth with such force and anger that it broke all my teeth, the blood did not stop, I was mad, it was killing me