En un post anterior les mencioné que tuve una pequeña gatita, y que ya esta no estå conmigo.
In a previous post, I mentioned that I had a little kitten, and that she is no longer with me.
Bien saben que perder a una mascota puede resultar en un luto emocional igual de importante y vĂĄlido que el que se experimenta al perder la vida de un ser humano... Todo el amor y la felicidad que nos dan y que nosotros les damos logran que la idea de perderlos se vuelva pesada, pero lamentablemente esa es una realidad inevitable. Por suerte tenemos la oportunidad de llenarlos de amor y apapachos, y gozar de lo que nos brindan hasta que un dĂa tengan que irse.
You all know that losing a pet can result in an emotional mourning just as important and valid as that experienced when losing a human life... All the love and happiness they give us and that we give them makes the idea of losing them feel heavy, but unfortunately, that is an inevitable reality. Luckily, we have the opportunity to fill them with love and cuddles, and enjoy what they provide us until one day they have to leave.
Ahora los pongo en contexto de qué ocurrió con Vi:
Now let me put you in context about what happened with Vi:
Como sabemos, los animalitos tienen temporadas en donde estĂĄn en celo, y sin hablar mucho de las aves y las abejas digamos que mi gatita terminĂł embarazada, nunca la llevĂ© a esterilizar porque no tenĂa el dinero suficiente para hacerlo, y no habĂa dado con alguna jornada de esterilizaciĂłn gratuita. Recordemos que mi gatita era muy pequeña, y tomando en cuenta el tamaño del padre de los gatitos que llevaba en la panza, ella era demasiado pequeña para soportar un embarazo asĂ. Un dĂa intentĂł dar a luz mientras yo no estaba, expulsĂł a dos, eran demasiado pequeños⊠y por desgracia el siguiente era demasiado grande, ademĂĄs de que estaba en una muy mala posiciĂłn⊠al final ella estaba agotada, no pudo expulsarlo.
As we know, little animals have seasons when they are in heat, and without going into too much detail, letâs just say my kitten ended up pregnant. I never took her to be spayed because I didnât have enough money to do so, and I hadnât found any free spay clinics. Remember that my kitten was very small, and considering the size of the father of the kittens she was carrying, she was too small to endure such a pregnancy. One day she tried to give birth while I was away; she expelled two, but they were too small... and unfortunately, the next one was too big, plus it was in a very bad position... in the end, she was exhausted and couldnât expel it.
TratĂ© de ir con un veterinario que da consultas gratuitas, me dijo que por el momento no tenĂa las herramientas pero podĂa conseguirlas, tambiĂ©n me pidiĂł que comprara anestesia para hacerle una intervenciĂłn quirĂșrgica⊠yo no tenĂa el dinero, mis padres tampoco, ni transporte, era ya bastante tarde por la noche y definitivamente no podĂa llevarla en transporte pĂșblico al sitio, ni yo podĂa ir a comprar la anestesia a esa hora⊠preguntĂ© vĂa Whatsapp en algunas farmacias si tenĂan esa anestesia, me dieron respuestas afirmativas, conseguĂ el dinero, pero lo del transporte no lo pude solucionar. Estuve con mi gatita hasta donde pude, sinceramente fue una experiencia traumĂĄtica verla sufrir y no poder hacer absolutamente nada. TerminĂł falleciendo a la mañana siguiente.
I tried to go to a veterinarian who offers free consultations; he told me that at the moment he didnât have the tools but could get them. He also asked me to buy anesthesia for a surgical intervention... I didnât have the money, my parents didnât either, nor did we have transportation. It was already quite late at night and I definitely couldnât take her on public transport to the place, nor could I go buy the anesthesia at that hour... I asked some pharmacies via WhatsApp if they had that anesthesia; they gave me affirmative answers, I got the money, but I couldnât solve the transportation issue. I stayed with my kitten as long as I could; honestly, it was a traumatic experience to see her suffer and be able to do absolutely nothing. She ended up passing away the next morning.
Yo ni siquiera tenĂa la fuerza mental o fĂsica como para darle santa sepultura, ni siquiera querĂa aceptar que se hubiera ido, si sĂłlo hace unos dĂas se habĂa acostado a dormir en mis piernas... Si a penas hace un par de dĂas me habĂa derretido de la ternura grabĂĄndola mientras jugaba.
I didnât even have the mental or physical strength to give her a proper burial; I didnât even want to accept that she was gone, just a few days ago she had curled up to sleep on my lap... Just a couple of days ago, I had melted with tenderness recording her while she played.
Me echĂ© la culpa, me sentĂ tan impotente e insuficiente⊠No sabĂa cĂłmo asimilar las cosas. PasĂ© un buen tiempo sin poder llorar a gusto, subconscientemente me reprimĂa, trataba de rodear el dolor en lugar de atravesarlo... QuizĂĄ estaba tan decepcionada de mĂ misma que sentĂa que era estĂșpido de mi parte llorar.
I blamed myself; I felt so powerless and inadequate... I didnât know how to process things. I spent a long time unable to cry comfortably; subconsciously, I repressed myself, trying to skirt around the pain instead of going through it... Perhaps I was so disappointed in myself that I felt it was silly of me to cry.
Pero poco a poco fui entendiendo, con la ayuda de las personas que me apoyaron, que habĂa hecho suficiente, lo que estaba en mi mano y mĂĄs de lo que habĂa en ella, que no era una mala dueña ni una mala persona, y que a veces ocurren esas cosas y no es como si alguien tuviera la culpa.
But little by little, with the help of those who supported me, I began to understand that I had done enough, what was within my power and more than what was in it, that I wasnât a bad owner or a bad person, and that sometimes these things happen and itâs not like anyone is to blame.
Amé y amo demasiado a mi gatita aunque ya se haya ido al cielo de los gatitos, a veces la extraño mucho mucho, pero me consuela saber que ya estå en un lugar mejor.
I loved and still love my kitten so much even though she has gone to kitty heaven; sometimes I miss her so much, but it comforts me to know that she is in a better place.
Muchas gracias por leerme. Les mando un abrazo del porte de un buque, y si estĂĄn pasando por una situaciĂłn difĂcil con sus mascotas recuerden que ustedes son los mejores dueños que puede haber, por algo sus mascotas los eligieron, disfruten al mĂĄximo del tiempo que pasan con ellos, a donde sea que sus animalitos vayan despuĂ©s de irse de este mundo, siempre recordarĂĄn lo felices que fueron teniĂ©ndolos a ustedes como dueños y todo el amor que les dieron.
Thank you very much for reading me. I send you a hug as big as a ship, and if you are going through a difficult situation with your pets, remember that you are the best owners there can be; for some reason, your pets chose you. Enjoy every moment you spend with them; wherever your little animals go after leaving this world, they will always remember how happy they were having you as their owners and all the love you gave them.