I currently have a job, I should have given it to the owner over the weekend, but unfortunately, I procrastinated until today and I am still not done with the job, it was just a little task of filling our departmental log book for the person and I knew that I could use a day to do the, so I told the owner over the weekend I will be done with the job and will direct him to come and pick it, but the job is still on my work table staring at me. Indeed I have opened the job but for everytime I open it, I give myself excuses of why I should not do it now but later, and it is Tuesday already and nothing has been done yet about the job.

So many times I have had journals and written down what task to be done for the day, but I always end up going with the flow, it's either I only carry out just one or two tasks out of the many listed or I don't at all, and just go with the flow. When I say I go with the flow, it means that I do the task according to how I feel or do it randomly as my heart pleases, leaving the rest for another day, which I may likely not do the next day and the other next day with so many excuses but always end up putting myself under pressure because I didn't do it when I needed to do it and at the right time.

I tell myself I can do it within an hour, and honestly, I want to do that task and be done with it, my mind has already envisioned me doing the job or task, and the right things to do or if it is a post, my mind has already told me how to write and what to write and how to begin the write-up and in fact, I am already doing that thing in my mind, but unfortunately, my body has its mind of its own and wants to do the job/task whenever it wishes, not when and how my mind dictates for it. So my body tells me it's a good thing your mind already has an idea about what you want or need to do about the job, let's leave it for another time or another day, it is not a big deal since we have an idea of what we want to do, we can use few minutes or at least an hour to do the task and I end up accepting what my body says and neglecting my mind. Phew!

Procrastination is one of the difficult habits to defeat, even though I have tried to fight it, I have had people tell me, the do's and don't on how to fight procrastination but for someone who does not like doing things the same way every day, I always end up getting bored with doing the same thing the same way every day, then, I skip a day and tell myself, it is nothing, I will make up for it the next day but I lie to myself and never make up for it, instead I stop following the do's and don't and end up doing things my way. Now, I have no choice other than to embrace that part of me, so even if I make plans for the day, I always end up going with the flow, although I may follow up the plan even when going with the flow, it is never accordingly and it is always done base on how I feel not necessarily because I see the need to do it.

Thank you for reading!!!