Strong pain woke me up at 2am. Pain was coming from my ear and not the physical version of it. Pain was inside. I was trying to tolerate but pain got stronger and stronger that I started crying. I was crying not just because it hurt like hell but because every other day something is wrong with me and I cant sleep every second night and I ambjust angry. I have never been sich child and I was not problematic with that and that continued in my adult era but these couple months were hell. And I feel bad because people do get thru hell but in that moment and with that pain I was feeling a little sorry for myself and that feeling had my boyfriend and my friend 😂 Sooooo, 2am, I am drinking brufen so I can sleep. Pain got away at 4am when I was exsausted at that point. Brufen lasts for me 5h. So yeah, I woke up at 7am with my ear on fire what I thought. The pain was just not bareable. I cant explain how much it was hurting. I started crying from the pain and got another brufen and the scene of me atanding in the kitchen/drinking brufen/crying and hitting my legs was something. In that very moment I knew I needed to call a doctor and get checked asap. And ypu know how much I hate doctors and would never call well thats how much it hurted that I called. One hour from that point of view, I was in a waitibg room waiting to get examed.

So yesterday we hosted a lunch for my boyfriend and friend and occasion was actually for my boyfriend to meet my mom for a very first time because we were talking about lasagna and how my mom makes the best lasagna of course for the lunch we had lasagna/there was my little sister who is a 10 years old and I was just babysitting her and then Mina and Marko came and we were playing some board games

Merry Christmas to everyone who celebrates Christmas today so it’s 7th of January and we don’t celebrate it at 25th of December so I started my Christmas in the church of Saint Sava/ It’s the biggest church on Balcan and I live two streets from it so I did arrange to meet up with my boyfriend tick before midnight and I actually primarily organized with Ana to go with for a liturgy, but you know I do have a boyfriend and all that kind of stuff and he wanted to go alone in another church and I was I was we can go together so me we met up a few minutes after midnight because it was chaos in front of the church because of the firework. It was so many people and the firework wasn’t that much at all and I can’t believe it when we were going through the mass some people brought a dog and the dog was so scared… how can you have a dog and not know that they are quite scared of fireworks and everything that comes with firework and Christmas and you just bring dog, it was traumatized and I was just shaking every time something bombed for him like is he actually okay 🥺

07:00 waking up with 4.5h of sleep but feeling okay.07:00 waking up with 4.5h of sleep but feeling okay.07:23 actually getting out of bed and brushing my teeth and getting ready to go07:23 actually getting out of bed and brushing my teeth and getting ready to go07:35 got in my car07:35 got in my car08:03 made it to work 08:03 made it to work 09:00 old college came for a coffee, he is coming back to work here again. Had a huge failure with that job opportunity and getting back here to get on his feet again and then try something better. 09:00 old college came for a coffee, he is coming back to work here again. Had a huge failure with that job opportunity and getting back here to get on his feet again and then try something better. 10:00 coffee workers came so I am happy to get my coffee after 2 hours being here. 10:00 coffee workers came so I am happy to get my coffee after 2 hours being here. 10:23 drinking my coffee10:23 drinking my coffee11:00 my boyfriend AK boss came to work so I was a little bit chatting with him11:00 my boyfriend AK boss came to work so I was a little bit chatting with him12:00 Ana came to work and because this was my last day we made a deal to eat McDonald.12:00 Ana came to work and because this was my last day we made a deal to eat McDonald.13:00 so its end of my shift and I got a good and strong handshake, but my colleague didn’t buy everything for the house and markets closes at six and she works until six so I did stay for hour and a half longer for her to buy everything that she needs and I could chil with Ana a little bit longer 13:00 so its end of my shift and I got a good and strong handshake, but my colleague didn’t buy everything for the house and markets closes at six and she works until six so I did stay for hour and a half longer for her to buy everything that she needs and I could chil with Ana a little bit longer 14:30 and I’m going home and of course always driving Ana home first14:30 and I’m going home and of course always driving Ana home first16:00 it’s 4 o’clock and I made it at my hood at 3 o’clock, so I was just driving around and trying to find a parking space for one hour why because I live in the center of the capital city so everything is happening here because it’s a new year and I was really struggling to find a parking and I found it on the most random place that it’s not even a parking so it’s going to be a good luck Charlie for me see my car next day.16:00 it’s 4 o’clock and I made it at my hood at 3 o’clock, so I was just driving around and trying to find a parking space for one hour why because I live in the center of the capital city so everything is happening here because it’s a new year and I was really struggling to find a parking and I found it on the most random place that it’s not even a parking so it’s going to be a good luck Charlie for me see my car next day.16:30 having lunch with my mum, and a little bit of chatting before I meet up with my boyfriend16:30 having lunch with my mum, and a little bit of chatting before I meet up with my boyfriend18:00 Marko came to pick me up and we got at his place18:00 Marko came to pick me up and we got at his place19:30 We were plating yatzee and drinking wine19:30 We were plating yatzee and drinking wine22:00 We are watching a movie 22:00 We are watching a movie 00:00 new year, and I am drunk00:00 new year, and I am drunk02:00 lot of head holding while I am puking 😂 02:00 lot of head holding while I am puking 😂 04:00 still doing it and not remebering04:00 still doing it and not remebering

So, these last days have been overchilling and resting. I have been spending all my time with my boyfriend just sleeping and being super lazy and it feels good to just stop. Last day we woke up at noon so you can say a lot about it when you know we both are regularly people who wake up super lazy. You know the main reason of me quitting and thats the College and trying to get that degree. But the problem is all our University and with that, ever single college union is blocked because of the protest happening all over the city. Why is that happening?

I got my job 2 years ago. I sweeped in because the worker before got fired and I just came for help, nothing serious but very fast I was okay at doing it and they offered me a timeless contract and I accepted it. I was absolvent at College and all my subjects were already listened so all I had to do is study and pass the exams. I am still that absolvent I did pass 0 exams in that time and the reason why I am quitting my job and trying to finish my studies. But even though I didn't do anything good on that side so much things happened and has been brought to me through this work and I am going to talk about it in correct order:* item1