We can say that everyone has at least two lifes. Living now, your routine is a part of your reality even if you don’t like it.
On the other part you try to dream your best life. Sometimes you live between reality and daydreaming. This is not out of a natural feeling, but when these two lifes are connected in a way that you can’t separate them in your mind, then you create another type of life that doesn’t belong to reality. Sometimes is like starting a mind game without a way out.
It is important to accept yourself, your inabilities at the same time with your abilities.
Make your best for improvement, not perfection.