Money makes the world go round and i need to around so money is an endless goal to keep going for. Even in the dead of night it's on my mind a i close my eyes wondering of it will mean a demise on wanting to hold onto to it. Looking all the time at the prices and why I'm going to such lengths to learn and hopefully earn. They say make money make you some money but it's a slow crawl waiting for it to snowball into a torrent that will not dry up even if i tie up.

Disclaimer: I wrote this five nights ago. I was depressed but I'm OK now. This may be my darkest thought. I think I'm trying to kill myself Without having to do the static act I'm not proud of what I'm doing Is it even a conscious thought Are there questions running through my head All the while I'm running to be dead Dark i know s I'm thinking this tears in my eyes No sane person does shit lit this Or is it a taboo but normal Am everyday affair not even thought about This is running through my mind Am epiphany cycling is broad strokes Common to all is blokes No confusion just a thought Not even sure why I'm writing this Maybe it's a last will and testament Where the saliva in the throat is dry Which is good because no point to cry Another beer in hand I'm nothing but a grain of sand Did dad have thoughts like this All the while he drowned out reality? There's a lot of reasons to be happy Why am i still feeling in this rot? I think i need a distraction Or some sort of interaction I'm not jealous of what others have Or am i just in denial Some sort of a waking dream Push me so I'll wake the fuck up I was fine this morning The light in my eyes Is this what depression is all about? A slow grind into none existence A private hell Like Idaho? Anyway it's my last beer I'm about to finish then I'm going home Mission accomplished.

I am perplexed At the things And sometimes a little Goes a long way A lot to think A while way throughHere's a case for a bubble. I'm afraid there is too much hype towards btc.I'm bullish and I'm in the opinion btc is going to rise but the amount of action happening reminds me of that internet crash that took a lot of cash off the table.

The stars are shining down on me as i gulp at the golden liquid getting my conscious into some abyss a pit just within reach all the time threatening my sanity.This insanity brought about by my conscious actions with no thought as to the why or the how even as i question my actions a momentary reaction to God knows what my insane membrane brings out of me.

One hundred and seven pull-ups. That's the current total rep count today. My back feels like it's been thoroughly worked out. Along with the rows and lat pull downs the session was two hours. My elbow are feeling them on both sides.

Ok been awhile since I powered up but today I did it because I cashed out a bit of my bitcoin. I was holding it for a while and wanted to capitalized a portion into hive and boom here it is today.A small amount powered up just to get myself a leg up in this crypto strong environment. I am not sure it is a good idea but I know I will be able to benefit from it in the end.