I had a very tough day. I’m still not home yet after leaving in the morning. But for some strange reason, all I’ve been doing is to smile. Okay, the reason isn’t entirely strange. I’ve just been proud of myself since morning.

I know you are probably wondering why a post about the mind has food as its thumbnail. Well, this post might not be the usual mind posts you’ve been reading, just a little something I experienced today. For a while now, I’ve been wanting to eat pastries but due to something that happened to me some days ago, my doctor has been saying no. I’ve actually been taken off so many foods and even though it’s supposed to be for my health, I just get annoyed each and every day. The funny part is: staying away from those foods have rather made me feel weaker, that’s what I think.

That was how I was brought up so it’s hard for me see someone struggling and just pass by. But for a while, there’s been this thing hanging around my neck which makes me feel obligated to help people even when I don’t have the means or just don’t feel like it. It’s even worse when it’s finance related. And as for why it is mostly financial, I can’t tell, but I know it is something that has been locked me up for a while.

When I was growing up, I always had a problem with my mom. I didn’t understand most of the things she did, and no explanation made me see things her way. We had this neighbor who was more like my mom’s best friend. They did everything together, to the extent that they even looked like sisters.

Many years ago, most of us, especially the aged, resented technology and our devices for how they were taking all our attention and time. In our era, the story is different. Most people now earn thousands of dollars with just their smartphones, and that’s also all thanks to that same technology.

I’m just coming from a friendly conversation that turned awkward. I have this friend who is now addicted to TikTok. He is currently unemployed and does nothing, so right after waking up, he takes his phone and begins to scroll through those thousands of videos online. It really didn’t take me long to notice this pattern in his behavior because I mostly find him sending me links to videos on TikTok from morning till evening.